| Thursday, October 2nd, 2008 |
| 12:46 am |
some of my happiest moments in life occur on AOL instant messenger
i will create a new category on my instant messenger buddy list i will call it ‘people i like who don’t like me back‘ and i will move your screen name into that group and i will invite you to my house and show you and you will say, ‘if i didn’t like you why did i come over’ and you will look at my face and i will have an honest answer for your question i will tell you that you came over to be polite and after a while you will go home and you won’t call and i won’t either and after awhile i won’t like you anymore and after awhile we’ll forget each other and after awhile you will be beautiful and alone inside of your coffin and i’ll be cold and alone inside of my coffin - tao lin Current Mood: inspired |
| Wednesday, September 10th, 2008 |
| 8:00 pm |
"Running away" my thoughts.... I wish I could do it. I always talk myself into the thought well not literally running away because I'm old enough to do whatever I want at this point. But to pack all my things and just leave. Make it work somewhere else, because I think Vegas is what makes my life so dull. There's no adventure anymore. I think I watch too many movies. |
| Saturday, July 26th, 2008 |
| 3:01 am |
I have such an ideal person for me in my head. Maybe more so than others. Maybe that's why I'm so hard to please.. I just can't settle for less than what I want, nor have I met anybody to even compare to the one in my head. But if I do even meet somebody like it- I'm not crazy. Being a dreamer is getting so much more difficult. Cheers |
| Sunday, June 22nd, 2008 |
| 7:38 pm |
"Look after me and I will look after you." That's something we both forgot to do. Current Mood: nostalgic |
| Tuesday, June 10th, 2008 |
| 2:42 pm |
I'm having an after-high school meltdown. That or an early life crisis. I have way too much life to stay in Vegas and just "go to school" for who the fuck knows what? I'd be paying for classes, taking bullshit classes that I have no interest in. I want to get out of here now. Danielle and I are serious. Our lives are at a crossroad. Our parents have fucked us over. Why does no one take us seriously? |
| Tuesday, May 27th, 2008 |
| 2:14 pm |
Things are changing so fast right now |
| Monday, April 28th, 2008 |
| 1:30 pm |
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| Friday, April 18th, 2008 |
| 2:22 pm |
Something is missing. Current Mood: sleepy |
| Friday, February 15th, 2008 |
| 10:27 am |
"You know the great thing though? Is that change can be so constant that you don't feel the difference until there is one. That it can be so slow that you don't know that your life is better or worse until it is... Or it can just blow you away, and make you something different in an instant." |
| Wednesday, January 16th, 2008 |
| 3:38 pm |
 This book has consumed me. Current Mood: calm |
| Tuesday, January 15th, 2008 |
| 9:28 pm |
I am so sick of trying with people again and again. And always getting the wrath and the blame of it. I have enough problems of my own. And trying to get over them and pretend that everything is going to be okay has only got me to where I am now. More and more and more fucking problems and losses. I do not need anymore reason to feel any more down than I already do. People aren't going to jump for you when you come running back. Take a little bit of ownership. Current Mood: indescribable |
| Sunday, January 6th, 2008 |
| 3:30 am |
You can only let somebody hurt and see you hurt so many times. I'm never letting myself fall back down. Time to let go of this doomed fucking mess of a situation. I hate you. Current Mood: let down |
| Sunday, December 23rd, 2007 |
| 9:14 am |
Seriously, I just need something to go right, right now. 2007 has really fucked me over. Current Mood: pissed off |
| Thursday, December 20th, 2007 |
| 2:26 pm |
Albums that made this year musically amazing; Annuals - "Be He Me" Interpol - "Our Love To Admire" Kings of Leon - "Because of the Times" Midlake - "The Trails of Van Occupanther" Vetiver - "To Find Me Gone" and, fuck it, their self named one as well. Wilco - "Summerteeth" Rilo Kiley - "Under the Blacklight" Black Lips - "Good Bad Not Evil" The Shins - "Wincing the Night Away" Bright Eyes - "Cassadaga" The Decemberists - "The Crane Wife" Explosions in the Sky - "All of A Sudden, I Miss Everyone" last but not least, Leslie Feist - "The Reminder" I ordered my cap and gown today. Hahaha. Finally, Natalie. Growing up and getting out. Fuck you 2007. Current Mood: sick |
| Thursday, December 13th, 2007 |
| 9:31 pm |
I've never wanted to be over something more than this. But, forcing yourself is never the key. I need a distraction. |
| Sunday, December 2nd, 2007 |
| 5:24 pm |
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| Thursday, November 29th, 2007 |
| 2:26 pm |
Desperation isn't flattering. Amusing though to say the least. Saturday night, Jamesy's birthday 1512 cliffbranch dr. henderson, nv 89014 ...no idea who's house this is. But, fuck it. |
| Sunday, November 25th, 2007 |
| 12:35 am |
Ahh. I've had it with california for the time being. I don't really want to go back until I plan on living there. I always expect so much and I go and it's a bust. Whatever. Thanksgiving was how it's expected, a lot of family and bullshit. Of course. All day my aunt kept referring to the turkey as if it were another person.. i.e. "Should we take him out and let him rest?" "He's lookin' good!"....uhhhh.... so by the time they were ready to eat, I was just really sick of hearing about it. Annnnnnnnnyyyyyyyywwaaaaaayyyyyy. Goinggggg to bed. That drive home wears me out. Fuckkkkk you livejournal you're boring and nooooobodyyyyyy readddddddsssss thissssssss maybeeeee thisssssssss willlllllll get youuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrr attttttteeeeeeeentioooooooooooonnnnnnnnn nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. Current Mood: drainedCurrent Music: Radiohead - Videotape |
| Tuesday, November 20th, 2007 |
| 9:37 pm |
California, every thanksgiving. This will be the fifth one where the same one person I can't get off my mind. Five fucking years too long. Current Mood: changed |
| Tuesday, November 13th, 2007 |
| 11:38 pm |
This movie is oddly entertaining. |